I’m struggling with my beliefs about money right now. I’m working at two part-time jobs that pay me less than I know I deserve with my education and experience, but I’m having a hard time letting myself pursue opportunities where I would earn more. Why? It’s because I don’t know if I am worth more.
I don’t know why I believe that the amount I get paid determines my worth, but it’s one of those beliefs I’ve learned is called “internal logic.” It’s what I tell myself is true, not what is true based on objective facts. So I continue to sell myself short without ever knowing what could happen if I took some risks in my professional career.
This is a quote by Maya Angelou that is difficult for me to grasp right now. “You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make money your goal. Instead, pursue the things you love doing, and then do them so well that people can’t take their eyes off you.” Marsha Sinetar wrote a book called “Do What You Love–The Money Will Follow.” So what am I doing wrong?
I actually don’t believe in luck anymore. I believe that what most call “luck” is actually something called “serendipity.” Wikipedia defines serendipity as a “propensity for making fortuitous discoveries while looking for something unrelated.” Some people believe that it’s the same thing as coincidence or luck, but I believe “finding something when looking for something else, thanks to an observant mind” is much more than luck.
Lawrence Block has a couple of quotes on serendipity that resonate with me.
“Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you’ve found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.”
“One aspect of serendipity to bear in mind is that you have to be looking for something in order to find something else.”
So if you always keep your eyes open, you might find something you never thought of looking for. Remember to keep an observant mind.
I believe that you can’t love someone else until you can love yourself. So how in the world do you go about loving yourself?
Some days I can look in the mirror, smile, and nod. It’s a good day, and I can see the light inside that makes me my best self. Is that loving myself? It’s probably a start.
But what do I do on the bad days? The days I can’t even look in the mirror at all, and I can’t even stand to be inside my own skin?
Sometimes being kind to myself helps. It helps take the edge of the “icky” feeling and helps me get through the day.
I’m working on loving that part of me that I can’t always face. Today I believe that is possible.
I don’t think I fully understand the law of attraction. I hesitate to say I don’t believe in it, because I do believe that my attitude makes a difference in the opportunities that come my way. I just don’t know if it’s the only answer to why those opportunities come.
I can’t really say more, because I just don’t think I get something very important about it. It puzzles me.
I believe that living in the now is almost unattainable. It’s hard not to look back at the past, whether that past was happy and full of wonderful memories or whether it was full of things you wish you could forget. It’s also hard not to look ahead to a time where you will be happy and have all the things you hope and work for today.
I can only manage living in the now for brief moments at this time in my life. I want to see things happen, and I want to see them not now, but last week. I’m frustrated with life as it is, and I’m still learning to be present in every moment while it’s here. Some days it’s not so easy–like tonight when I’m working an overnight shift alone with 7 kids and getting no gratitude at all for it. Maybe it will get better soon. I hope so anyway….
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Some people believe that formal education is the best way to go to become an expert in the area you’re passionate about. I believe that is bunk.
Formal education has to stop sometime. Some people choose to move on after high school. Some earn their college degrees and say, “bye bye” to the classroom forever. Even if some people want to, no one truly becomes a “professional student.” There comes a time when everybody has to learn how to learn on their own without homework assignments or tests.
How do you do that? I believe that it’s possible to learn from books. I read fiction and non-fiction. I learn something from everything I read. I even read nutrition labels on food. I soak up knowledge where I can.
I believe that you can learn from people who are doing what you want to do. You might not be able to get a degree by going to workshops and conferences, but you get to pick the brains of people who are very, very smart–sometimes in personal ways.
I believe you can learn by doing. You can learn by making mistakes and understand why you made them. You can figure out a better way to make it happen for you.
I believe there are as many ways to learn as there are people who are determined to learn. What are some ways you learn without going back to school?